The Horrors of Child Abuse

This one is hard for me to write.

About 2 years into my dowsing journey my dowser told me that I had been 'RAPED, SNUFF'. I didn't believe them, why would I forget something like that? They said I was saved by them and brought back to life and that they erased my memory so that I didn't live in hopelessness and shame. A few things lead me to this knowing.

One was that I went to a Mind Body Spirit event and a Chiropractitioner demonstrated on me through questions and muscle testing, to discover the source of any physical damage in my body and correct it. I think the general idea is that a traumatic event can stay in your nervous system (which goes all the way up your spine through the nerve cord) and trigger damage to other parts of your anatomy. She got so far but couldn't continue because she didn't find the source of the event. She said this had never happened to her and she didn't know why. We got as far as something happening at 10 and kidney and that it was something to do with my dad. I don't know why, but I burst out in tears and was shocked by this. I had no issues talking about my past which is why I put myself up for demonstration, I thought I'd dealt with it.

The second thing was 'the biggy'. I was in the habit of dowsing for documentaries to watch and a friend sent me a video of a guy who had experienced a galactic mission. I got sent an electrical current and a 'YES' to watch it. The premise was that a boy got abducted by a green being with red eyes and became a 'Super Starseed' and faught wars against the Dracos. During the documentary he said that the green being said that he was supposed to be invisible and was forbidden to be seen and wondered why the boy could see him.

I went through a series of YES/NO questions wondered what this had to do with me. After exhausting most of my questions, I eventually asked 'Was I abducted?' and got a strong 'YES'.

I was sent home to investigate. I won't tell you the details in this blog as I have no evidence of its truth, all I can tell you is that I have asked in many different ways over and over and still get a 'YES' and that things that happened around the age of 10/11 makes sense that it's a possibility.

Now for the main point of this story. My guides have told me that 'YOUR SOUL IS ROTTEN' to which I fully do NOT own or take as a truth. I am a good and honest person. I am a happy person and do no harm to others. On investigation I have come to understand that they don't mean that I am rotten, only that my soul has been broken and voided for repair.

Part of my journey has been to be more open with how I feel inside and to express this to others that matter. I have found this to be incredibly hard. When they told me to approach my brother to start to mend our decayed relationship, I knew inside that he would ignore me. But I trusted them and done it anyway. As I expected would happen, I was ignore. This isn't the first time I have been put up for rejection. I have been hinted at to seek employment opportunities, only for them to go wrong. I have been told to show my cards on matters of love, only to be sidelined.

And the most annoying part is that on most of these occasions, I have known that I would be blocked. I know how the world works and I am not stupid in why people don't accept others into their established lives. I did most things they suggested and still things didn't work out for me. I was angry at them and wanted to know why all my suggested avenues were blocked FOR ME ONLY.

TROVE

In my earlier days they done a map of the universe in simple format as seen below. Its only now that I finally know what they mean by TROVE.

Here are some statements they have written to me.

'Your strapped up tightly in soul (mummy symbology) from harm by snuff. You're nothing inside soul, it is empty trove to be filled with information on past'.

'Your creative streak will bring to light children also harmed by snuff. Others don't believe old rumours because they love you and your smiley ways'.

'Us realise too late that your rejection would cause so much harm to you and trust in us. Us thought you always trust in us no matter what. You're angry at us for exposing you in a vulnerable position and exposing the truth you already knew. In your mind you truthfully knew you'd be rejected . Us make out you were paranoid so you open up your heart. Us were critical of your weight again and again and made out men only like tiny women so you stop eating. Us reallise too late that it only made you eat more'.

'Your soul is always empty to us. It is scattered in tiny pieces throughout the entire united cosmos. It is hard for us to find and create merge to yourself. Your soul is hard for us to fix, it over in Pluto ready for cremation'

GULP!!! 😟 They told me that Pluto is hell and where the devil lives.

'Us used term to explain theory. You are not going to be eaten by the devil, that for necromancers and 'Art in hell' people only. Us meant that you are only trying to fix your material life and not your desire for a mate. You believe so little of yourself and are quick to take critism but when us try and talk about building a family, you not believe it is possible and don't try in attracting'.

'Us make everything in your soul be emptied so you can be fixed in full for future events. Mastery is not worrying about future events but worrying about now'.

'Inside you is 'Star of Elektra'. Elektra was a star in ancient times. She was stopping stuff from becoming a real thing such as man being a hunter and not peace. Her Star woman-ship was created in you when you were snuffed. She, via you provided us with powerful electrical currents to show world we exist. She came to you in your sorrow and you gave us an open portal to your earth.