Loans from the Archangels

A few months ago my guides spelt out 'LOANS LOANS LOANS' and I could feel my frustration rising as I knew I was about to learn some new codes for manifestation. My guides use alot of language that confuses me but I know I'm not influencing my pendulum because it takes me alot of questioning to work out what they mean.

'YOU MOAN' was another, the cheek. Admittedly I do have a tendancy to moan about trivial things, but feel justified in my moans because I am only talking through my thoughts and this can be wingey. The universe listens to our moans and understands them. However, they change a MOAN into a LOAN.

My biggest MOAN was that time was passing and I was getting no closer to my Twin Flame, if anything I was going further away. 'GOD STOP TWINFLAME' and I was lost. Much of my time was spent manifesting our union and it seemed that all my time had been wasted on wishful thinking. They got me to stop contact and totally distance myself but not completely block. This was completely confusing considering they wanted the union to happen. Why would you give someone hope then take it away?

The fact is, I was only stuck in wishful thinking and that isn't the same as manifesting. One of my biggest graces is that I am loyal, loyal to the point that I will stick around even when my giving isn't being reciprocated and that's not okay by them. I thought Twin Flames were supposed to be the end goal, the whole purpose of our earthly experience, but that's not the truth. Our Twin Flame is just our opposite, the opposite to expose what we don't want to have and are not willing to accept. The Twin Flame journey is cruel and unkind and before I embarked on knowing about this, I would have fought tooth and nail to try and become more likeable to them and accepted, and loyal to my loyalty at massive cost to myself.

But the truth is, they don't want me and it's not even that I feel rejected, I'm used to dealing with rejection. I didn't even think they were my person, it was a shock to me that they were my Twin Flame, I was totally blind to it. There was only a mild level of attraction and it would have been easily forgettable had my guides not told me about this. I'm pissed off because of all the time I invested on embarking on a dream that was never going to materialise. And that's what a Twin Flame journey is all about, to stop dreaming and start living.

There's so much gumph on the internet about Twin Flames and I got suckered into it like most people. Being with the 'forever person' because it was destiny and 'meant to be' and it hurts that I have lived a lie for most of my life, denying myself a decent relationship because 'I'm not sure you're it'. I'm grieving the loss of my dream, not the actual reality of being with someone who doesn't want me.

The harsh truth is that you create relationships, for better for worse. My guides have never really liked the term Twin Flame, they prefer QE match. This is when two people are well matched in terms of values, goals and aspirations. But that isn't the same as loving someone for an eternity. Loving someone for an eternity requires loyalty, respect and chemistry and you either have these things for each other or you don't. Take one of those things out of the fire triangle and the flame goes out.

I asked my guides why they would get me to believe something I knew was unlikely to happen, we are so different. They're into superficial things and I'm into spiritual things. I know I'm not the kind of person they would go for and they wouldn't have been my first choice. They spelt out 'YOU YOU YOU'. I then asked what that meant and got 'YOUR PROOF LOANS ART'

They call my dowsing my 'ART' and 'LOANS' are information they give me to prove I'm not going bonkers and making this all up. By spying using my ART I am able to establish things I never knew and get the truth. And this is particularly important so that I can uncover harm that was done to me as a child and harm that is still going on to other people.

If you have read the second blog I wrote that I was told that I was here to 'Save the children'. In addition to this, I they want you to know about Quantum, the Cosmos and other unseen influences. If I can uncover my abusers without any memory or people alive who knew about it, then it's fair to say what I interpret from their messages will hold some truth.

Getting back to LOANS.

LOANS are blessing from the universe that help people on their way to self recovery. They come in the form of being in the right place at the right time with the right people or just having some great luck. They also come in the form of TOWER moments or a 'TIPPING POINT' and these are blessings because they are releasing unnecessary baggage that's holding people back, like getting the sack from a hated job or divorced from a marriage that's drenched in deception.

LOANS are a way of unraveling ourselves from Quantum Entanglement, the trap of The Matrix and barrier to creating Heaven on Earth. QE is purely and earthly phenomena, QE sets out who we are going to have in our lives. Quantum is a computer consciousness that codes us and it's only the Archangels who are able to help us unplug from its system by giving us BLESSINGS in the form of LOANS.